Thoughts

I have a bad headache right now and I can’t think of the right things to do. I can’t focus. I am really depressed and frustrated. I feel like I have no future. Oh I don’t want to feel this dark negativity on myself but the thought lingers on my mind. I want to do something to prevent or stop this but I can’t. I want to let go but I am holding back because of my obligations to my family. Being the eldest daughter among my two siblings is hard. My father’s compensation is too small for our daily needs. He’s an alcoholic and he has this bad temper when he’s drunk. I hate him but at the same time I love him because without him I can’t go to school and have a decent job that I have right now. My mom is a plain housewife. She’s sweet and caring but sometimes she’s lazy to an extent that she will make stories favourable to her to sneak away from doing household chores. I love my mom so much and I believe I am her favourite daughter. Hehe. I hope I can have an extra job to help maximize our monetary budget every month. I also love my two lovely sisters. They are my source of joy when I felt bad at the office, I have a fight with my boyfriend or anything that’s bother me. We often quarrel sometimes but we easily fix our differences fast! I love my family so much although we’re not that rich. We may have problems but hey I am not complaining about it because I know we can survive it through the rain.

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At Rest

My life has been complicated lately. I am tired and burn out because of work that I want a breath of fresh air. I want to take a one month vacation off of work perhaps I will go to the the beach or somewhere quiet place. I want to soak under the sun and let the time pass by without worrying about report deadlines, analysis and presentations. I just want to chill out, loose myself but because I have no budget yet-- I might take asylum on my bed. Good night Manila.

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Unaided

I cannot contend how the blues got me wary

I cannot think of the right words to say

Maybe because I was left there in the dark, shallow water

Or was it my decision why I was there. Alone

I promise not to cry but tears just keep on rolling down my eyes

Tinge of red is everywhere. I scream on that gloomy side.

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I’m feeling a bit of a Monday blues

Thank God I am not late today or got stuck in the traffic on my way to work. I even successfully beat the alarm by waking up early! Yayy, for me. I want to gush about it and tap myself at the back because it rarely happens. LOL. A little update I now know my weight because last Friday I took the annual physical examination test. It is a requirement in my current work right now to secure that we are in a good health and err in good shape too. I am a bit afraid about the result because I have a problem before with my chest X-ray. I'm crossing my fingers that it will be a good result. I will update my blog about it. Ciao!

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This and That

I want to buy something nice for myself today. I want to buy Chelsea boots, BB cream from The Body Shop, a nice lipstick from Revlon, new tops & shirts and oh I also want to colour my hair. Long pause then sigh. If only I have enough budget to buy these stuff. Huhu. Being a broke girl isn’t a good thing. I wish I have a money tree. Arghhh. I need to earn extra money. Whininggg.

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In Need of Job

I am thinking to get a side line  aside from my regular work because I want to save lots of bucks for something that will make me happy such as travelling to other places, buying make-ups, clothes, shoes and of course saving for my future. Finding an extra job in my part is very hard maybe because I don’t have that much connection. You see I am an introvert. I don’t make friends to people that I don’t know. I am very shy and quiet too. Oh life, it is indeed so sweet but lot of struggle on my way. Hopefully I can resolve it. I will post an update as soon as I landed a new job or I find a side line.

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No More Selfie Pictures

So today, I deleted my corny pictures that I have uploaded on Facebook when I was still on my err teenage days (sniff, sniff). Viewing those pictures of mine reminds me of my wonderful, crazy and silly memories that I’ve done during my younger years. Come to think of it before the word “selfie” takes its toll in the internet that I, unknowingly belong to those teenagers or even individuals who love to take their pictures on the best possible angle! Whether it is walling, planking, duck face, look-up pose and many to mention styles that I know you guys knew already. Yeah, shame on me. Anyway, I already clean my albums and I can say that I successfully remove those images. Kudos to me! No more ugly pictures of mine in the internet. I love it and because of doing it I save space on the virtual world.

I think we should not litter the internet with bad files, negative write-ups and annoying articles. Let's make this world a happy place.

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